I love you, you know that right?

This poem doesn’t really rhyme or make an awful lot of sense but it made me feel better to write it!

I love you
You know that right?
To feel you kick
To feel you hiccup
To know you are there
Lately though
I’m finding it hard
Harder each day
Each hour
Each minute
I want you cocooned
Safely inside me
As long as can be
But my body is useless
Or so it would seem
The hours drag on
The day we will meet
Seems so far away
I don’t know how much more
I can take
I feel moany and grumpy
All day long
I groan and I whine
I bore even myself
I love you,
You know that right
I wonder if you can hear all
My moans
Sense all my stresses
Feel all my pain
I hope not
I hope your bubble is cosy
And warm
That you know you are wanted
And desperately adored
I don’t resent you, precious one
Someone asked me that
Of course not I said
It’s nobody’s fault
Or is it mine?
Did I do something wrong
Somewhere along the line
I eat the right food
I don’t drink any wine
But maybe I did something
At some point in time
It’s 1am and your daddy and sister
Are blissfully sleeping
I’m sitting downstairs
Silently weeping
Weeping for me feeling sorry
For myself
Weeping for you and praying for
Your good health
Don’t come too soon
But don’t wait too long
I really don’t think I’m quite that strong
I want you suckling at my breast
I want to watch you asleep, at rest
I won’t mind if you wake me
Or maybe I will
But I know I will be happier
Even if tired still.
I hope when you read this
At 8,12 or 20
You will know that if
You weren’t here part of me
Would be empty.
I love you,
You know that right?