This is something that Izzy has started to say..usually for funny reasons like..Mr Tumble has finished ..it makes me so sad ..or I can’t see Nanna today..it makes me so sad.
Today we left Izzy at a local nursery/preschool for the first time. She’s 3 years old but doesn’t start nursery at her school until January so this is something we have decided to do once a week to get her used to us not always being around. And guess what – it made her so sad.
She had minor hysterics and had such an incredibly sad face that I had tear myself away knowing that what I was doing was for her own good. So she is there and I am here sat near the phone just waiting until it’s time to go and get her. Chloe is in bed. This is the peace I always crave. But I miss her.
I doubt that by this point she is missing us at all, she is probably making new friends..eating snacks..painting but we aren’t there to see what she does. Will the teachers spot her toilet signs..her wiggly dancing bum which means it’s really time to have a wee NOW. Will they know when she needs a cuddle or wants a drink. How can they know how to look after my child in the way I would look after her.
She will be gone for just two hours but already my house is silent, her giggling and nagging is already missed and I’m sat here in my peaceful house crying just a little tear for the mayhem which I’ve grown so used to.
I used to wonder why my sisters got so upset at their children approaching milestones. I totally get it now. Every milestone is a step further from us. A step away from them being completely ours.
And this. Well it makes me so sad.