You know sometimes when you do something silly, then you catch yourself and think woah that was a little childish? I do that a lot. Don’t get me wrong I have a lot of very grown up responsibilities, being a parent, owning a house and working to name a few but in lots of ways I am still fairly immature. Like the other day when I taught the girls to say Cash me outside..how bow dah. Do we ever really fully grow up? Do we even want to? I’m not sure I do. I thought it would be fun to share with you some of the things I think reflect my maturity levels…and also help you to get to know me a little better too. So here we go, 12 things I do:
1. Laugh out loud at rude song lyrics. There is a line in one of the new Ed Sheeran songs ( New Man ) which makes me laugh like a teenager. I also like to sing these songs out loud when I am out walking..when I think there is nobody around and well I have been caught out at least once. Oh and I can’t carry a tune either so..
2. Watch movies like Mean Girls and The Prince and Me when I am at home alone. I also got into tv shows like Gossip Girls, The OC and One Tree Hill quite recently, years after everyone else and well I can relate to these teenage girls a bit more than I should. And obviously I want Blake Lively’s style and effortless beauty.. not to mention she has a rather cool husband.
3. Drool over Chris Hemsworth and watch films that he is in purely for that reason..sure I want to watch Thor again..and again…and again.
4. Regress to my childhood when I am with my best buddies. When I am with my closest friends I am like a giggling twelve year old at times but we all need that don’t we? You can’t take life seriously all the time.
5. Want to watch Disney films more than once. I saw Beauty & The Beast twice in one weekend when it was released and only the astounding prices in the local cinema stopped me from making a third trip. I also downloaded the soundtrack and may have spent a brief 15 minutes imagining I was Belle in the yellow dress. Is it too late for me to go to a ball in that yellow dress? Say it isn’t so.
6. Look for the grown up. Anyone else do this? Look around for someone who is more grown up..someone better at adulting than you are? Sometimes it can be a bit of a shock to realise that oops it’s me. I am the adult, responsible for the bills and being a parent and going to work. Pah.
7. Google the lyrics to songs. Because I must know the words and be able to sing along correctly. Although this is far easier than it was in my actual early teens when you had to record songs from the radio and rewind to get the lyrics.. oh you never did that? Me neither.
8. Write to do lists with tasks on it that I have already completed purely for the satisfaction of crossing things off, it’s a good excuse to linger in a coffee shop looking like I am doing something. Oh and I doodle all the time on everything, even in work. Sometimes hearts and flowers..because you know in my head I am that teenage girl still.
9. Avoid phone calls and face to face conversations. I am a little better with this lately as I know face to face meets are best for work but if I can contact you via whatsapp, text message, email or facebook messenger then expect that from me. If I speak to you on the phone or arrange actual meetings then you can be assured it is either very important to me or I like you a lot.
10. Eat the wrong things. I’m 33 years old, I know I should have a balanced diet and I make sure my kids do but when they are at school or not at home I will have days where I eat absolute rubbish. A kit kat for breakfast dunked in my tea why yes that is just fine. A potato waffle with mayo AND ketchup for lunch, why not.
11. Love McDonald’s. Can I tell you a secret? I have fallen in love..with McDonald’s coffee. I want to visit the Golden Arches at least once or twice a week JUST for my toffee latte. A few months ago I would have scoffed at it, being the new coffee lover that I was and telling myself it wasn’t the ultimate coffee experience BUT it is one of the best coffees I’ve tried so that is my treat to me. Sometimes a double cheeseburger slides on to my order too..I don’t know how but it just appears. I worked at McD’s when I was 16 for just under a year and for years afterwards I barely set foot in one but I am no food snob. I am happy to admit that I like the food, it’s not the most incredible food or the fanciest but it’s easy, fairly cheap and well the coffee is awesome.
12. Pretend I am Rocky in my fitness class. Or some super cool movie like female superhero. I have taken 3 months just to get to a stage where I hold my arms in the right way and get in the right stance, my instructor has been patient with me and it’s very funny now when I am about 15 minutes in I get so confident in my abilities and woah I can box. I really..really can’t but in my mind I am ready for the ring. Worth pointing out I am not training to be a boxer, it’s just a part of the class I go to.
Also how I imagine I look during my class:
In reality I’m a sweaty mess.
The thing with getting older is that while your face and body age your mind doesn’t really. Not much anyway. Yes I think differently about a lot of things but that is a result of experience and learning. In my mind I am still 25 and quite often I will act like a silly 15 year old. I laugh too much at inappropriate things, I wear superhero character t shirts and get overexcited still by the fact that I have a pretty awesome tattoo. On most days I don’t feel mature or responsible enough to be a mother but I manage, I wing it. I don’t really want to change. I am a big kid at heart and I think in the world we live in, a little of that is needed. I’ll be a grown up 75% of the time because I have to but that other 25% it keeps me sane, keeps me happy, keeps me..me.