Firstly don’t go getting excited. I haven’t had the baby and I’m not sitting here supping on entinox (gas&air) but I never would have imagined I would STILL be pregnant. My “official” due date is tomorrow, my own estimated due date was last Friday so by MY date I’m almost a week overdue and I really feel it.
For the past 2-3 weeks I’ve had more nights of irregular painful contractions than I care to remember..I wake each day with an incredibly sore belly and no baby. The night before last was particularly bad and my midwife thinks I may now be in slow labour..MAY.
Today I see my midwife for what I really hope is the final time before baby comes and she will examine me to see if things are happening..if not I may be given a stretch and sweep – I’m really hoping that’s not as uncomfortable/awkward as it sounds. On Monday if I am still waiting I will see my consultant who will also try to move things along. I really want things to happen naturally for me as I seem to hear more and more negative stories about inductions every day – in fact to be completely truthful with you I am starting to get a little bit scared. Scared that my baby is getting too big for me to deliver (I know it’s daft) scared of being induced and it taking days of horrid unnatural labour but mostly scared of the risks that can increase due to being overdue.
My body is tired, my mind even more so. I want to stop thinking I’m in labour and then to be disappointed. I really want to lie on my stomach. I want my baby lying in my arms and my toddler and man at my side and for EVERYONE to be just fine. Mostly I want the stress of this pregnancy to be gone.
I’m really sorry for the moan. Again. I know how incredibly lucky I am to be pregnant and we are overjoyed to know our baby will be here soon but I will admit to you all this is hard.
Thanks for reading and supporting me through my pregnancy, your comments/emails help more than you could know.